Dr. Seuss Stream of Consciousness--Will the Day Come?This is really embarrassing. I'm sitting here and I can literally feel my palms sweating as my friends talk about their lovely children. One of my friends is sitting right across from me at the dinner table, rambling on and on about his wonderful son who just graduated from college and is going to become a doctor. I mean, I'm happy for him and he is my friend, but this talk really bothers me. Helen and I have been wanting a child for so long and the fact that my friends are talking about all of their successful children really hurts me.
Helen fell sick about four years into our marriage. She was so ill that I was afraid that I would lose her. Because of her abdominal pains, the doctors decided to remove her ovaries, taking away her ability to bear children. This was truly heartbreaking for Helen and I and we decided to keep it a secret from everyone, only telling our closest family members. Now whenever someone talks about their children, I always chip in about Chrysanthemum-Pearl, an imaginary child that Helen and I have. It is quite amusing to all of my friends and they all get good laughs out of it whenever I talk about Chrysanthemum-Pearl's latest award at school or her delicious oyster stew with chocolate frosting and Roman candles. But even though I am smiling and appearing to have a good time, I'm hurting inside. Chrysanthemum-Pearl represents my longing for a real child. My friends think that Helen and I do not want a child but they have no idea how much we are heartbroken that we can't have a child. I'm smiling and nodding as my other friend talks about his daughter and how she is soon to be engaged with one of the Wilkin boys. I feel as if it will never end. My palms are becoming more and more clammy and my smile is slowly turning into a frown. It would be the greatest miracle if Helen and I could have children. I just know that I would make such a good father to my children. I would tuck them in every night to a good story, with absurd drawings of amazing animals and places...oh the places we would go. |
Reflective Endnote: "Will the Day Come?" -- Stream of Consciousness
This is a Stream of Consciousness that I wrote for Dr. Seuss in order to express possible personal thoughts that he might have had while his friends talked to each other about their children. I picked Stream of Consciousness in order to do this because it effectively serves to immediately capture personal thoughts that Dr. Seuss would be having while his friends talk about a subject that he is uncomfortable with. This Stream of Consciousness serves to emphasize one of Dr. Seuss' major personal struggles in life: his wife Helen's inability to have children. As a result, this Stream of Consciousness helps to enforce that Dr. Seuss was very unconventional in his actions in life, such as his decision to make up an imaginary child "Chrysanthemum-Pearl."
This is a Stream of Consciousness that I wrote for Dr. Seuss in order to express possible personal thoughts that he might have had while his friends talked to each other about their children. I picked Stream of Consciousness in order to do this because it effectively serves to immediately capture personal thoughts that Dr. Seuss would be having while his friends talk about a subject that he is uncomfortable with. This Stream of Consciousness serves to emphasize one of Dr. Seuss' major personal struggles in life: his wife Helen's inability to have children. As a result, this Stream of Consciousness helps to enforce that Dr. Seuss was very unconventional in his actions in life, such as his decision to make up an imaginary child "Chrysanthemum-Pearl."